Reality

While most of the time it is easy to put on a brave face and be excited about finally being here, it is often an inner battle of choosing to be content, choosing to trust, fighting the self-doubt and the loneliness. 

Tonight, although I know I will win the war with these things, I am losing the battle. It's ok, this is a huge part of the life I am hoping to lead! But it takes getting used to, and growing pains imply pain for a reason. This night, I choose to remember that though I doubt, my Father never changes. That it is through my weakness, my very dependence on Him that He is able to work. 

I'm just so dang human!